Kiss...

Ok, so today I'm here to talk about something that's probably the best way to show someone how you feel for them: the kiss... maybe I can't say a lot about it, but I'm thinkin about it cuz I read this article in a newspaper that was really cool. Here ya go:

"The kiss... the kiss... the kiss... I was on the internet and I decided to go to this website http://bbb.blogs.sapo.pt/, the Urban Jungle blog and I find The Kiss. Not Rodin's kiss nor Klimt's kiss... but a kiss, I mean, a big kiss like they called it on the blog. You have to see that kiss... You have to listen to the music on the background... You have to let yourself be carried by the sensuality of that moment that crosses beyond the little box where it is shown, and just hypnotizes you when you look at it... You have to read some of the comments that people left there about kissing and the story behind it... and that leave us with an irresistible urge to kiss and kiss and kiss... You have to contribute to those comments, like we were all building a huge universal kiss...
You have to explore other kisses... You have to remember kisses that were already given... You have to imagine kisses that are still to be given... given kisses, stolen ones, exchanged ones, tricked ones... pure kisses, evil ones, sweet ones, bitter ones or kisses of anger... affectionate kisses, tender ones, love kisses or passionate ones... automatic kisses and unique kisses... like the ones that are just given to you, the ones that have the strength of a nail that was nailed on wood which opens in a very subtle way to let in what you can't help to let it. The unforgettable kisses.. the ones that are worth a lifetime, the ones that make you forget everthing around you, the people, the time, the past and the future, because life is right there, in that moment, centered, immersed, but still felt there.
Take my advice and don't miss out on the kiss and, like a ship, sail on it and let yourself go in the moment..."

You should go to that website, not only cuz if you read portuguese it's all translated (I didn't make that good of a translation, it was kinda hard... =p) and also cuz all that makes even more sense if you see the kiss. I know it made me think... and I thank the makers and whoever wrote all that stuff for makin my day a lil brighter. It's simple things like that that make life have much more meaning... It is one hell of a Kiss!! And everybody should take the time or have someone to give a kiss... short one, long one, with or without tongue... A kiss is like a transmission of feelings... feelings which make the world go round... even though nowadays people pay less attention to that... Thank you Urban Jungle authors, keep it up! =)
Kisses, Hugs and Much Love to everyone!!

One day...

One day there'll be no more J.C., nor Jorge, nor J
There'll just be some posts from some dude who never knew wut to say
One day I'll stop being so lame
If someone treats me wrong, I'll just do the same
But that's not me, I could never do that
Treat me wrong, I'll still treat you right, that's a fact
One day people will have to accept me for who I am
This is me, I won't change much, I'll be myself till the end
One day my life won't seem so hollow
I'll have more than 1 dream that I can follow
One day I'll find comfort in pain, spread my wings and fly away
To a place where I can really hear what my heart has to say
One day this whole world will change
No more wars nor hunger, even though now it may sound strange
One day I'll run out of tears to cry
And when I really have to do it, my eyes will be desert dry
One day I'll step up and take a stand
Let everyone know my opinion, and always raise my hand
One day everyone will meet with who they miss
Tell them how much they need them and give them a big kiss
One day people will look out for each other
Not to get something in return, just cuz we all like brothers
One day I'll wake up from this nightmare
Look up to the future and see I have much to share
One day I'll get swept off my feet once more
But this time I'll make it right and make her the one I adore
One day there'll be in this world more loving than fighting
One day people will be reading what I've been writing
One day dreams will come true
Just believe and work for them and don't give up until they do
One day my mom will be fully recovered
And I'll be by her side, leaving her love covered
One day people will see past the colour of their skin
In that day is when life will truly begin
One day people won't care what the other people think about them
They're gonna be theirselves and care only about the words of a true friend
One day everyone will find happiness
If you think for that you need money and more, you're wrong, it takes much less
One day people will also say everything that's in their heart
Cuz that's the only way you can get in life a good start
One day women will stop thinking all men are alike
One day men will show women that they're more than sexual objects and good for sight
One day everyone will treat their significant other like they deserve it and are special
One day they'll realize that that's what's really essential
One day people will stop feeling depressed
They'll start lookin forward and see that they're blessed
One day people will see that for everything there's a bright side
Look for it, it's always there, just look from every angle and also inside
One day people will realize that heartbreak is not the end of the world
It's just another page of your life story that destiny had to unfold
One day we'll all go through that, it just has to happen, that's life
But never give up hope to find your future husband or wife
One day each one of us will find their soul mate
We'll realize it when it happens, and when it does, life will finally be straight
One day you'll feel like you can't move on
Just turn on your favorite song, and start singin along
One day you'll regret one decision you had to make
Don't look into the past, cuz that itself is a big mistake
One day people will reallize we all make mistakes
It's how you deal with them that matters, learn the lesson, whatever it takes
One day you'll see the bigger picture and see some things are meant to be
So let life take its course, live the present, be happy and free
One day I'll stop writing here, stop letting everybody know how I feel
If that day should come, it's cuz I have nothing more to reveal
One day I'll really need you and you'll really need me
When that day comes, I'll be here for you, I'll be what you want me to be...
One day you'll read this and say that some of these thing will happen never
It's ok, life is made of good and bad moments and friends, and the good ones you keep forever...

=)

To You... My dear friend

Aight my friend, it's like this:
I'm not here to judge you for what you do, nor even to tell you what you should or shouldn't do...cuz you know what you do and do not want... or at least you should know... ;)
What I'm gon' write on here is gonna make you think about some stuff... that's the whole point of this... But it's not meant to hurt you or make you feel guilty of anything. I just want you to read this and think about it and then you can keep this in mind, if you want.

- Think of all the bad moments you had in your life... Think also about the people who were part of those bad moments... It's hard, ain't it?

-- Now, take those bad moments and divide them in 2 parts:
*The ones that were initially good or started from good stuff and turned bad after a while;
*And the ones that were just bad from the start
The ones that were initially good or started from good stuff are way harder to get over, right?! I wonder why... Like they say, "Hell is full of good intentions"...

--- Now take those bad moments that started from good stuff and divide those in 2 parts:
*The ones that you put other people through and that you felt bad about (sooner or later);
*And the ones that other people put you through and that made you feel really bad.

You see where I'm tryin to go here? Now keep thinkin about that... Deep inside, in which of those moments did you feel worse?! Think it through before you get an answer (and don't forget that answer! Keep it in mind)

Aight, enough of bad thoughts!! Let's go to the good stuff!! =)
-Think of all the good moments you had so far... And in the people who were part of them... ;)
--Now think only about the good moments, the ones that were started from something bad that you did, but then turned into what you most wished for... Remember the happiness you reached from those transformations and how happy you really were...

What's my point with all this?... Everybody makes mistakes. Mistakes that hurt other people, mistakes that are bad to other people, even when our intentions are the best one, really bad mistakes sometimes... Cuz nobody's perfect. That's why I think everybody deserves another chance. As hard as it may sound. I know I had that 2nd chance... you prolly had that 2nd chance... And I remember how it feels! You feel an inner glow like you never had before... Even though you put that other person through such pain... why? Cuz love is all that matters... and when I mean love, I don't say love just as in boyfriend-girlfriend, husband -wife love, I'm talkin about Friendly love, Family love... all your loved ones that once hurt you or that you once hurt. Think of how you could make someone have an inner glow so bright, like the one someone made you have one day... Think of how you'd make someone so happy like someone has made you one day... So happy... and full of love! And how did that someone made you so happy once?... By giving you another chance to make right whatever you did wrong... giving you another chance to at least TRY to do the right thing... And if even with that other chance things didn't work out like you thought they would... Then you can really say "I did everything I could to make it right" and then you don't have to think "What if...?", "Would it have worked out...?", "Would I/he/she be really happy?"... And with that you can't regret or suffer anymore, because you fought till the end for what you really wanted and what you believed in and thought was possible! I guess y'all know what I think... "You regret more what you don't do... than of what you do"... The worse thing that can be is doubt... "what if?.." Don't get me wrong, don't misunderstand me, PLEASE! I'm not sayin this to be annoying, or cuz someone asked me... I'm just saying this to you, my friend, cuz I really worry about you and wanted to leave you with a piece of advice... because YOU are really important to me! You have no idea, but you are! I'm not tryin to tell you what to do either. I'm really not! All I want is to see y'all happy, with whoever, however, whenever... I just don't want you to live with doubt, and always thinkin about "What if?..." or "Would I be happy...?" and thinkin about how it would've been if you gave another chance, if you had another chance, if you took that other chance, if the other chance you gave was taken... Just live 100% the present, always lookin forward. Look back, but be sure there was no doubt in any of the moments you went through. Life is made of choices... You make good ones or bad ones... But you can't keep on wonderin about them. All I want is the best for you guys, cuz you deserve that! I don't ever wanna see you hurting. I'm the last person who wants to see you hurting. But I know that no one likes to see their loved ones hurting... Cuz... everybody deserves at least a 2nd chance... Just think about this... You're my friend and I love you. I want you to be always happy. You can keep this message. Hell, I was so inspired writing this that I'll keep it myself! =p It may be useful to me too... someday... you never know... What I wrote is what I feel! I wish you could see that, but I hope I don't have to prove it to you! Because all the good things I want for me, I definitely want it doubled for you! And be sure to know this!! I'm here for you, forever and for always!
PEACE OUT!

Ballin baby!! =D

HEY HEY HEY!!
Damn I feel good! Y'all prolly know why by the title of this post...yes, it's true, I balled yesterday! YEAH!! That's the reason why I didn't even write on here yesterday after the game, I was so damn sore! Sorry!
But like I said, that made me feel good! I mean, there we were, 2 minutes into the 2nd quarter and the coach called my name. I was like "What? Me?! Are u fo' real?!" I was pretty much shocked! First, cuz we were playin good, we didn't need no subs, and then cuz he had never picked me as the 6th player! I felt bad for Walter though. He was playin well, had two 3's in a row and came out. I still think my coach makes bad decisions. Of course I'm happy for playin, but when I know someone else's doin a good job and I'm goin in for him, I can't help feelin kinda bad.
Anyways, I went in, and played a good game. It wasn't that good cuz I'm lackin some confidence. I mean, I had 3 turnovers where I lost the ball dribbling. And I got handles! I guess I just don't feel well cuz everyone just expects me to do a great job on defense. Supposedly that's what I'm for. I'm like screw that though! I'm playin both offense and defense! It's not like I'm just gonna be there to pass the ball! Ok, i only had 10 points in like 28 minutes, but that ain't a reason to think of me as a defense only player! It's my job to once again prove them wrong and let them know I'm a good baller on both sides of the court! We won by like 20, but it wasn't that strong of a team that we played against. Next game I gotta take another step in front and make them realize the real me! I'll keep u guys posted! HOLLA!!

Breakin down

Wut up peoples?! Damn, I always ask this and nobody answers... =p
Chillin here, after a long ass tiring practice! Damn, I ran a lot today! It was cool though, the practice was good. I like to run the court, fastbreaks and wut not, so I loved it. I also guarded the american dude on my team, Jason, and while I was at it, he did very little. Now I'm really sore though. Anyone can help me out wit a massage?.... Pretty please....? =p This of bein a masseur and giving great massages... and not bein able to massage yourself sucks big time! It's all good, at least the coach didn't take me out. I don't know if that means he's really countin on me tomorrow though. I hope so, and I'll let you know how it goes down tomorrow!! =D
Anyways, another thing I'm here to talk about. Let me break it down for you real quick... Ok, so u find someone, u have to separate, hurts like a bitch, and people tell you to move on, go on with your life...Wut the hell do they mean with that?!
I mean, sure, heartbreak's a pain, it's hard to get over them (some people never do... no names mentioned though... ;p) but it's not like someone will die right there! Ok, that has happened, but it doesn't happen often. Especially nowadays! People are into a fast life, always on the move, meaning fast relationships. Hell, I know many people who are like that! But I'm gettin away from wut I wanted to say.
Aight, like in my case, people say "Get on with your life J", "Understand that it's over J", "Do the same as her J"... Ok, did anyone stop seein me around or did I disappear?... Somehow I doubt it... Did anyone see me die or sumtin? I don't think so, or I wouldn't be here writing. I'm gettin on with my life, it didn't stop just cuz I got dumped. There were days when I didn't wanna get up, didn't wanna eat (I still don't eat much, but when I do, I gets busy! =p), didn't wanna go out.... but I don't think many people actually stay in bed for weeks or months or starve till someone shoves food down their throath, or stay at home being couch potatoes! Hell naw! Love can make you do crazy stuff, that's true, but I don't think many people don't get on with their lives. Cuz gettin on with your life doesn't mean you HAVE to find someone else, it just means you still do wut u used to do. I still go to school, I still play ball.... is that stopping at all? No. And of course I have to understand, it's not like I really have other choice! Damn, I've done everything I could and it didn't work, she still didn't want to be with me, so I have to understand. She's in love with someone else, so I have to understand. And I do understand! And doing the same as her... ok, that's how u know that people haven't been really payin attention to wut I write! When you read, be sure to understand wut u read. I know, I write a lot of boring, lame, romantic, self centered, no good for readin stuff, but it's not like u have to read! I just thought it'd be interesting to share my life wit y'all! Maybe someone can identify themselves with me, maybe I can get some feedback, maybe I can touch someone... I don't know! I just do it cuz I love it! Ok, gettin off track again... sorry... aight, so doin the same as her... why the hell would I do that? Gettin someone else? hmmm... let's think about it for a second... I'm a romantic, lame, sensitive guy.... I believe in love.... I believe in bein loved... I believe that you can't be in love with 2 people at the same time... I believe that you should only be with one person at a time... I believe you should be with the one you in love with... So let's add all this up... wut's the result? Exactly! If I'm still in love her, I can't be with someone else! I can, but I don't wanna cuz that's not me! I sometimes wish I could be like some guys or girls out there, who can just go out, make out with a different person every night, do it with a different person every night, but I can't. And I don't really wanna be like most people, I wanna be me... And THIS IS ME! Holdin on to the past doesn't mean you don't move on, it just means you keep good memories (in this case, the best memories) of wutever happened. At least that's wut it means for me... I'm sorry if I misunderstood someone...
Deep inside, of course I still wish she'll be with me again... I'm in love with her, wut can u expect? But I have to learn to live like this... half again... learnin to find my way in darkness, learning to be lonely, learnin to be my own companion... fightin back tears... wishin she was here, but knowin that she never will... Being truly, madly, deeply in love, but knowin she loves someone else... It's all good! Hope is the last to die and is something I always have! And I still have friends who I can count on for whatever! By the way, it's never enough to say: Thank you guys! You're the best!
It's not like I asked her to wait for me... not at all! All I asked for was one more chance... Didn't get it... sucks for me, i'm S.O.L. But she made it, she got over it, she loves someone else who loves her back... good! Great! AWESOME! I'm really happy for that! I hope they have all the happiness in the world, the brightest future ever! Knowin that they're happy already helps me out a lot! But don't tell me to get on with my life, don't tell me to understand, don't tell me to do the same... Please... I am moving on and gettin on with my life... I do understand, completely... I just can't do the same... at least not quite yet... not while I'm in love...
I'm out... PEACE!

Dreams...

Hey ladies and gentlemen... wut gives?...
I'm aight here... Just woke up from a dream wit... well, u know who... and surprisingly, I'm ok. No tears, no heartaches, no nothing... Well, I guess I've come a long ass way already, so I just learned how to deal with pain.
The dream I had wasn't all that though, it was pretty short and simple, which is good. I just was hangin out by a mall and saw her and her boyfriend hangin out too...ok, doin sumtin more than hangin out... =p Anyways, after all that talk about how I'd feel happy for her to find a new love and all, it turns out it ain't just talk. I really feel good about it. I don't feel great, but then again no one who sees the one they love with someone else feels great, but the thought that she's better that way and that he's treating her so well helps a lot. Ok, the 1st day wasn't that easy, I was feelin terrible! But I just had to face the truth, you know wut I'm sayin? It's not like I'm gonna be with her ever again... I really wanna, but as days go by, that seems to get impossible... I believe the world takes many turns and that wut's meant to be will be, so if we're meant to be, we'll be together again. If were not... oh well, I guess I'm just S.O.L.! =p
I didn't wanna talk about this cuz, I mean, from her boyfriend's point of view, havin another guy who likes your girl can't be comfortable... but then again, it's not like I'm part of their life anyways. I just gotta walk away and give them a chance to be happy. I really hope they take it. It seems like they are and they trully deserve it. She trully deserves it!!
Hell, I should do the same! But I am... this is me. It's not like I ain't happy. I still go out, I still have fun, I still check out girls... I'm sensitive and all, but that's just my way of dealin with stuff. I mean, if I saw a friend of mine goin thru sumtin like I am, I'd be like "Don't feel like that, someone else'll come along, blah blah blah..."... "While you're cryin, no one can fall in love with your beautiful smile, bla blah blah..." Of course I would! I want to see people happy! And of course they say that too, they wanna see me happy! But I am... not utterly and fully happy, but I am happy... I have to be! They say I shouldn't feel guilty. I know that, but it's not like I can help it. I realized it too late though. Everyday I wish that somehow she was with me again... not happening. It's cool... at least she may have found the love of her life just because of that! At least I'm guilty of something!
Life is made of meeting and havin to leave people... Like I said, life takes many turns too... She may not be the one for me, you say. How do I know that? If we liked each other so much, how did she get over it and I didn't? If I believe that when it's real, it's forever, then why didn't this last forever?I don't really have the answer to that... but how do I know she could be the one?... I just feel it... been feelin it... deep inside... You see, when you live your life, you always think you're great until you find your other half. When you find her/him, you realize you weren't complete that whole time, and the now you are. You complete each other and you wonder how you could ever have lived apart. But if something happens and you have to follow different paths in life, you'll feel like half a person again. And that's really bad, cuz now that you know how it feels to be whole, you won't feel good until your back with your half and complete again. That's life and love...
I'll stay open to other options though. Like a kid I know very well said once "we all have crushes during our lifetime, big ones, small ones, phyisical ones, all that..." =p I'm down for that, I'm just waiting for someone who can actually sweep me off my feet. Hard to do, but then again, nothing is impossible... My life isn't brilliant, but my love is pure... =)
I don't really talk about this kind of stuff with anyone, I just write them down. It's easier to share that way. Of course it means more when you talk. It's all good though, I have friends who I know will always be there for me whenever I wanna pour my heart out. And you, my friends, I'll always be here for you too, but you know that =)
I'm out for now peeps. PEACE!

Played! But why still down?...

Holla holla everyone! It's yo boy J to da C, in tha place to be! Wuzzup wit y'all?
Well, guess wut...same ol' sh** here... =p it's all good though, I'm a survivor! WHAT!? heheh
Ok, so yesterday I had a game at Aveiro. 6th game of the season, coming from a win, which is always motivating. The practice before I had played a lot cuz we tried this "box" defense cuz one of the players in the team we were gonna play usually scores a lot. So far so good... maybe I'll get a chance now, since I'm a pretty good defensive player.
Not really... we pretty much got our ass kicked by the other team. The player who was supposed to be guarded had 28 points... I don't know wut was up wit us! We were down by 20 at the end of the 3rd quarter when the coach told me to warm up a lil bit. That was sumtin I actually didn't expect... I wasn't really motivated, but I do wut I always do, get down to business. Went in, stayed the whole 4th quarter, the other dude had only 4 points while I was guardin him, I had 6 points, 2 turnovers, 2 steals, 2 rebounds and 3 assists... Ok, I'm just braggin now, stats don't usually matter for me, but when I think about wut people told me after that... it got me thinkin "Why am I still here? It's not like this is the only place I can play at..." The answer to that? I'm not a quitter, I'm not one to give up. EVER! Not in basketball, nor in love, nor in life! I've been thru this, and I like to prove people wrong. That's what I wanna do, prove my coach how wrong he is. I took the 1st step on yesterday's game... let's see how it goes this weekend... I'll keep u guys posted! PEACE!