Training and thoughts...

Hey gang! What's the crack in the hood nowadays?! ;p

Remember that wourkout plan I started? Well, decided to add a little twitch to it. So far, it's been killing me doing this, my muscles are sore as hell, some times I can't even finish the reps I set out to do. However, I am only in week 2, my body needs to adapt to all this. And boy, is it doing so! I can see and feel some of the results already! :D makes me feel great I can have this motivation and mindset, really needed this so I wouldn't be thinking about stupid stuff again...I know, I know, it's just hard to help that. I think things through a bit too much and get caught up like that loads of times...usually only basketball helps me out, but since right now I can only play on the weekends, this insane workout is doing the trick! We'll see what happens in the next few weeks! Wish I could post the videos of the workouts I'm doing... =( I will be posting pictures after the first 30 days of the workout tho! Hopefully I will look way more developed than this ;p Aight y'all, take it easy, work hard and try not to overthink. Most times it only leads to something you don't even wanna think about in the first place... PEACE!

I guess there's no point saying this now
It feels like it's done and you''ll be gone, this doesnt count
But now you're about to go away

I realize every day
We made a mistake

You're the best thing I've ever found

Now that I want you, you're moving on
I tried to call you but nobody's home
I didn't notice how I felt till you went away
I guess I'm always a day too late

I'm not done though,you're waiting this long
There's no explanation, but I can't stop you if you wanna go
But we felt right all along
I miss you bad when you're gone
I finally opened my eyes and now I'm standing alone

You seem to run from me, like you can't to be bothered,

Believe that I finally see

We great for one another
Now honestly I get

The reason why you may have left
But damn I hope I can have you back ...

Cause I hate even the mornings

Cause I know what they bring
It means even if we're together when I dream, you're leaving
I know it sounds so selfish
I just can't help but think
That if you knew how much I needed you, you'd stay

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way I feel about you every time
It's like I've had enough
I'm sick of wishing you was around me everyday,everynight
And you don't...Its way too much

I hate love

I hate phone calls
In the middle of the day
Cause you don't wanna talk

And just reminds me that my baby girl is so far away
It drives me crazy
Cause I need you with me
I know it may be hard for you to understand what I say

I just don't wanna feel this alone, but can't help it
Every time I think of you walking out I start missing you
Wish I didn't need you this much, can't help it
But I love you and how it feels when we touch

I hate love...

How do you forget?...

Hey y'all! What's going on!?

So it's summer time and I'm back in TugaLand, trying to enjoy all I can as always! =) Unfortunately this ain't really been the hottest summer...so far I've actually seen a lot of rain and cold seems to be wanting to stay around. Hopefully in the next few months it will go away!

So, what have I been up to, you may ask! (or not, but Imma tell you anyway!) Not a whole lot! haha! I know, quite sad...but I guess that's holidays. Had a couple of basketball tournaments, still got a couple more to go, nothing too big though. Went out a few times with friends I hadn't seen in a while, which is always great, but still got so many people to see and ain't had the chance...

However, I must say the biggest thing going on right now is my decision to stop being a sappy lame guy, as well as lazy at times, and introduce a new life plan! It will basically consist of:

- Not letting myself get worked up because of things I have no control of

- Try and fix my sleeping pattern to more acceptable hours

- Workout more often

It's not really a huge change to what I've been doing so far, but everyone needs a change every once in a while, and a certain chain of events that happened lately brought me to wanting to do this for me. Yes, it's for me, not to make anyone think different =)

Now the workout part is the one that is getting me more excited (as well as worried)! I downloaded these programs called P90X and Insanity Asylum, which are extreme workout programs for people to get fit in about 90 days. However, having the fitness experience I have, I decided to try and merge them, creating a schedule that seemed appropriate. Some of the things they do are ridiculous, it's gonna be extremely hard to start it up, but I think that will be the worst part. After getting it going, I'm sure I'll be fine :) would post some videos here, but can't really...will leave you with a "before" photo tho, and log back when I see significant results! If all goes according to plan, these should be visible within a month. Of course I also lack the equipment to do all this, but will try to work around it somehow!

Ok, in the meantime, I will just leave this thing on here that made me really think. It's by a portuguese author and I can't be asked to translate it right now, so will do it some other time. Its basically his thoughts on how to forget someone you love. Not that I want to forget anyone at the moment, but may need it again in the future...you never know what may happen :) Aight y'all, I'll leave you with this, and my pics at the end, just to throw you off a bit and because I can't be asked to do another post now ;p miss you guys! ONE!

Como é que se Esquece Alguém que se Ama?Como é que se esquece alguém que se ama? Como é que se esquece alguém que nos faz falta e que nos custa mais lembrar que viver? Quando alguém se vai embora de repente como é que se faz para ficar? Quando alguém morre, quando alguém se separa - como é que se faz quando a pessoa de quem se precisa já lá não está? As pessoas têm de morrer; os amores de acabar. As pessoas têm de partir, os sítios têm de ficar longe uns dos outros, os tempos têm de mudar Sim, mas como se faz? Como se esquece? Devagar. É preciso esquecer devagar. Se uma pessoa tenta esquecer-se de repente, a outra pode ficar-lhe para sempre. Podem pôr-se processos e acções de despejo a quem se tem no coração, fazer os maiores escarcéus, entrar nas maiores peixeiradas, mas não se podem despejar de repente. Elas não saem de lá. Estúpidas! É preciso aguentar. Já ninguém está para isso, mas é preciso aguentar. A primeira parte de qualquer cura é aceitar-se que se está doente. É preciso paciência. O pior é que vivemos tempos imediatos em que já ninguém aguenta nada. Ninguém aguenta a dor. De cabeça ou do coração. Ninguém aguenta estar triste. Ninguém aguenta estar sozinho. Tomam-se conselhos e comprimidos. Procuram-se escapes e alternativas. Mas a tristeza só há-de passar entristecendo-se. Não se pode esquecer alguem antes de terminar de lembrá-lo. Quem procura evitar o luto, prolonga-o no tempo e desonra-o na alma. A saudade é uma dor que pode passar depois de devidamente doída, devidamente honrada. É uma dor que é preciso aceitar, primeiro, aceitar. É preciso aceitar esta mágoa esta moinha, que nos despedaça o coração e que nos mói mesmo e que nos dá cabo do juízo. É preciso aceitar o amor e a morte, a separação e a tristeza, a falta de lógica, a falta de justiça, a falta de solução. Quantos problemas do mundo seriam menos pesados se tivessem apenas o peso que têm em si , isto é, se os livrássemos da carga que lhes damos, aceitando que não têm solução. Não adianta fugir com o rabo à seringa. Muitas vezes nem há seringa. Nem injecção. Nem remédio. Nem conhecimento certo da doença de que se padece. Muitas vezes só existe a agulha. Dizem-nos, para esquecer, para ocupar a cabeça, para trabalhar mais, para distrair a vista, para nos divertirmos mais, mas quanto mais conseguimos fugir, mais temos mais tarde de enfrentar. Fica tudo à nossa espera. Acumula-se-nos tudo na alma, fica tudo desarrumado. O esquecimento não tem arte. Os momentos de esquecimento, conseguidos com grande custo, com comprimidos e amigos e livros e copos, pagam-se depois em condoídas lembranças a dobrar. Para esquecer é preciso deixar correr o coração, de lembrança em lembrança, na esperança de ele se cansar.