Workout blues

What's the crack home boys and girls?! Hope everyone is having an awesome summer and not as hard as mine! ;p I'm not one to complain though, it's being hard in a good way. I been working out quite a bit to get myself ready for the next season, and also to keep myself busy. I already shared with y'all the program I'm doing. So far it's going well, its just hard to keep up at times cuz I ain't got weights at home and the strength bands I do have are not always enough :( but it's better than nothing. As soon as I head back to B-ham I'll hit the gym and become the beast I'm looking to become! haha!

Anyways, other than that, just been looking after my mom...she was quite bad a few weeks back due to her immune system being almost non-existent...It just brought back memories of when she had breast cancer and was in and out of the hospital, going through chemotherapy and other treatments. Saddest part of my life...the good thing is that this time it was nothing to be worried about, after a few hours in the hospital and some treatment she was ready to go and now she's all good! :D unfortunately for me, this always happens when I'm having some other kind of issues in my life...but I guess that's what defines me, how well I deal with everything going on around me and in my life. Sometimes it is quite overwhelming and I can't even leave my room for a few hours. Hate feeling like that...like I can't even cheer myself up. Usually I'm the one always there for friends, always there to lend a helping hand, offering a shoulder to cry on, understanding whatever may be going on with anyone. This time it was me who needed someone like that and I couldn't find that person...or maybe didn't wanna find that person. It's funny how I never follow my own advice :) I always say talking is the best way to release any kind of pressure or anything, encourage it to the max! But when it comes to me, I tend to shut it down. I guess I know myself better than anyone and know exactly how to deal with my own issues no matter what they are. I bet any of my friends would be there for me though, so can't complain in that aspect, I am blessed :)

OOOOHHH!! Something also worth mentioning! Finally managed to be around my first ex (You will know her if you read the first posts... ;p) without feeling any kind of impulse to do anything! AMAZING! :D That was actually what made me feel better this whole week! We hung out, went to her cousin's gig, had dinner, went to a bar...all this in a perfectly friendly way! I was so nervous to meet her at first, but then just let things flow and all went pretty well. Didn't embarrass myself in any way! So proud! ;p I mean, there's always that somewhat awkward feeling because of all we been through and I been through cuz of her, but it's nothing compared to even when we saw each other last year! Who would've thought this personal growth program would help me even with that?... Maybe it will keep on working when I go back to B-ham ;p just kidding, it definitely will!

Damn, I miss B-ham...aight peeps, that's all for now, me thinks! Middle of workout week 3 and the soreness is mostly gone! Some results, but nothing worth posting up here...hopefully in 2 weeks! :D

Love y'all! ONE!